i try to read and keep up with a number of blogs from a variety of backgrounds. they stretch my thinking, give me new ideas and inspiration, and challenge where i’m at.
but i just removed one blog from my google reader. the guy was a pastor at a growing church and had a ton of great content on leadership – i loved reading his stuff. about a month ago when i checked out his blog there was a letter posted from him to his congregation, admitting to a 2 year long affair with someone else in the church.
my heart still aches for the church, staff, and certainly for him and his family. i watched the new interim pastor read the letter to the congregation in a church service when the news broke. it was painful to watch over a computer screen with no real connect to the church. i can’t imagine what it must have been like to hear the unbelievable news about a person you’ve grown to love and trust. it’s unneeded, stupid pain.
tomorrow i’ll post on what i do when i hear of others in ministry who have been sidelined due to sin. i want it to be more than tabloids and news for me; i want it to serve as a humble reminder of how it could just as easily be me. but in the wake of this experience, he still is posting content on church leadership, and i just have a hard time respecting his voice anymore when i see his posts come up. is it something for me to work through? …probably. but nonetheless, the fact remains:
when you’re sidelined due to sin, [at least for a time] you lose your voice and influence. it doesn’t matter how much training, experience, and skills you possess, if you lose your purity and sacrifice your family, you lose your voice.