shanna’s pregnancy just crossed the 35 week threshold and i think to both of us it’s really starting to feel more real everyday. i know when the baby’s actually here and crying at the top of her lungs i’ll probably laugh at that statement, like… “you thought that was real – ha!”. but we were talking the other day and the hospital says that most likely if she starts to go into labor at 36 they won’t try to stop it. yikes!
here’s a few random thoughts kicking around in my head about it all:
1. the whole process is FASCINATING! to think that this all just happens on it’s own after some “cosmic sneeze” in outer space billions of years ago… well, i guess i just don’t have the “faith” to believe that one. this whole deal in and of itself gives evidence for an intelligent designer, and gives great peace to the unknown in the future.
2. i’ve been noticing more EMOTIONS within me. (i’ve noticed more emotions in Shanna as well, but that’s not what this post is about!) //for the record, she’s done GREAT through it all!// i expected these emotions in me and was warned of it, but it all seems to converge at the same time, which is interesting. tons of excitement, lots of fear, loads of gratefulness, more fear, etc.
3. i feel more RESOLVE to truly put family first. i love what doug fields said at the Simply Youth Ministry Conference this year: “i really don’t care if you’re successful in ministry if you’re not successful with your family”. it’s a struggle for every parent, but those in ministry have some unique challenges to overcome, and i’m sensing, in a really good way, more personal resolve in that arena.
4. there are some things in life you just can’t PLAN for. i’m a planner, and i like things scheduled and calculated. but when this baby decides to “bust a move” (as some friends say) it’s really got nothing to do with my calendar or plans. i’ve been uncovering every rock possible for hints about the when, but God is just gently saying “chill out and relax”!
5. FULL MOONS & abnormal weather patterns may help me plan though. i certainly don’t believe everything i hear, but they were talking about this in our childbirth class this week. a few weeks ago on march 19th you couldn’t miss the “supermoon” in the sky, and the hospital was talking about how that very night every maternity ward in rochester was packed! they even went on to say that some hospitals in the carolinas actually over staff these departments during hurricane watches. there probably is some scientific reason that someone way smarter than me could explain… but for now – i’m watching the weather!